Putting on My Big Girl Panties

Well, if you read often you know that I have recently had a lot of anxiety over a doctor appointment that my Mom was having yesterday. She had been called back in after a mammogram for additional tests, and those tests led the doctors to believe she needed a biopsy on the spot they had found on her breast. Even though I was sure it was nothing, I was nervous. I mean come on y'all, it's my Mom. As my sister Ashley and I say, she is our everything. So Monday i had a touch of the flu and yesterday was the day for the biopsy appointment. The appointment was at 10:30, so I was casually texting with my Dad while they had her in the back. He said they kicked him out. Lol Time passed and during that time I had HA at swim lessons, and they showed our house twice yesterday. So, I was a little distracted and expecting good news anyway, so it was a couple of hours later before my Mom called. She was in good spirits and explained that the doctor's needle was unable to go into the mass, and the doctor had tried three times. At that point, she explained to my Mom that that was not good and meant there was a 99.9% chance it was cancer. The next step is a biopsy at another place, but they couldn't get her in for 10 days??!!!! Say what??!!! She called back and was able to get it moved up to the 24, so she is going to continue to call and check for cancellations. The doctor said they would do the biopsy and probably do chemo to shrink the size before removing it. My Mom says she just wants them to remove both breasts and do reconstructive surgery. Chris was very sweet and came home from work early yesterday when he found out. He knew I would need him, and that meant a lot to me. For one, he works in finance, and it is tax week. Probably not the best time for him to leave, but he did it for me. I didn't even ask. I am feeling like I'm in someone else's world. I'm just still really in shock. But our family is tight, and we have a great network of Christian friends. With God's help, we will come out of this on a positive note giving Him all the glory. Now that I've said that, I'll say please hold us all in your prayers. My Mom is really doing great about it all, but I wanna crawl in a hole at times. There's no time for me to crawl in a hole! I have 2 young girls to take care of, and I need to be there and helpful and positive for my Mom and family, too. So looks like it is time for me to put on my big girl panties and deal with it!